Thursday, August 31, 2006
We were out of the house for 9 hours yesterday -- Caspian's longest! First we had my MW's funeral, then driving to the state capital to get his birth certificate, then my PT appointment, then hanging out at my parents' house. He slept most of the time he's in the car seat, but Charlie had him out during my appt, and I had him out at my parents'. He was great!
I can't believe we're flying out Wednesday! I'm starting to freak out about packing. How will I know what to take for the baby? We still have to buy him some dispoisables for the trip.
We'll see the ped and an OB tomorrow, so we should find out what Caspian and I weigh...
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Okay, do not watch the pilot episode of Battlestar Galactica. An android woman was marveling over the fragility of human babies to a mother with a carriage, saying stuff like, "It's amazing that their necks are strong enough to hold up their heads." Then when the mother stepped aside to talk to someone, the android reached in and snapped the baby's neck!!!!!!!!! It was really horrifying.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Okay, as I was posting here, he just started chuckling to himself! Oh my gosh, he's amazing! I can't believe I just heard my baby laugh -- twice!
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Saturday, August 26, 2006
It still isn't real for me -- it's like I'm outside myself. I've never had someone in my circle die before.
Every time I start to cry and call out to Jesus in my pain, He says, "She's with me!" It's kind of like getting slapped, the tears get cut off so abruptly. It makes me feel so selfish when I grieve her. She's not only no longer in pain, but she is totally in her element! Beth really was not part of this world -- she was way too incredibly awesome.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Another first: he officially, indisputably smiled at me! He was on the bed in the Boppy, facing away from the door. I came back in from the bathroom and peeked at him from behind his head, and he looked up and smiled to see me!!! I was so thrilled, I walked around in front of him and kissed his neck and face a bunch of times...and he smiled again!
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
I feel better about the pacifier, too. No nipple confusion here! If he just wants to comfort suck, he'll take it. If he wants to eat, he'll take the paci but then screw up his face and spit it out immediately. If he doesn't want anything, he just compresses his lips together! What a smart little boy. Even if we manage to catch his lips open, he'll clench his gums to show he doesn't want it. He does that when he doesn't want any more to eat, too. Nope, mommy, I refuse to open my mouth!
His little noises are great. He makes whiny trumpet sounds like an elephant when he's asleep but stirring. He also growls when he wants to talk. When he cries (which is only at two times: when he has had to wait to eat or when he is naked on the changing table and waiting to eat), it is the most pitiful, heart-wrenching sound in the world. It isn't angry or harsh — it's just sad. You can tell he's just a sad, forlorn little baby. It even sounds like "waah," which totally shocked me.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Caspian slept from 11:00-3:30 last night! I think he would've slept longer, but a strong poopy sound-smell combination woke me then, and I thought it was him. In my stupor, I shined the flashlight right on his face to check on him. He had been sound asleep and still to that point. Grrr. In retrospect, the smell/sound must've been either my imagination or Mia, who was sleeping next to my head. Caspian's never been stinky in his whole life -- not even his poo! Too bad I didn't remember that last night.
Things I Can Now Do One-Handed:
- wash and dry a load of laundry
- fix a peanut butter sandwich and a glass of milk
- type (either hand)
- smooth and fold a blanket
- apply lotion from a squeeze tube
Don't be impressed; this is out of necessity. We don't have a swing, a bouncy seat, or even a Pack n' Play, and I refuse to leave my child in his bassinet when he's awake, so a lot of things get attempted baby-in-hand. The Moby's too hot to wear all day and too involved just to pop on as needed. My two-handed tasks are piling up, though, so I don't know how much longer we can function this way...
Monday, August 14, 2006
Caspian skipped his usual 7-10 p.m. nap, so he actually slept from midnight to 6 a.m. last night!!! I still wake at every peep he makes (so I didn't actually sleep for all of that time), but it was still an indescribably bigger chunk than I've gotten in the last three weeks. I panicked around 4 or 5 and almost woke him up to eat because it had been so long, but Charlie pointed out that he wasn't giving any hunger cues. Praise God!!!! I'm praying he does it a few more times so I can feel human again...